*little window at the bottom of our stairs - secret fave.
I think this blog is becoming one of 'those' blogs - you know the one: you subscribed to it b/c you found a ton of great info, liked the style, enjoyed the musings, connected somehow...and then suddenly the posts dropped off into nothingness...and you start to forget why you subscribed to it in the first place. Ugh! I have wiped many of those clean from my blogreader slate this year, but I'm determined not to become one of them! Bear with me peoples! I'm getting there...
I have 5-7 posts started here at any given moment. I seem to talk myself out of them as I go, yet I save them in case my feelings change. Seeing them in the drafts' queue this morning got me thinking about decisiveness. Are you decisive? Are you wishy-washy? Can you be decisive? Does it depend on the subject? Does it depend who you're answering to (yourself, someone else, a desire, an inclination)? Does it depend on hormone fluctuations or the ebb and flow of the tide or the amount of work involved? Does it hold you back or propel you forward? What do you feel like when you make a resounding decision? Share, share! (Repeat the word decisive 10 times fast - it's a non-sense word now!)
I am decisive 90% of the time. So 9 out of 10 times, yes, I can make up my mind in a snap. But when I look at the 1 time that I can't or choose not to, that's often the one that matters the most. Guess that makes sense (low involvement vs. high involvement). I also know that that one time I don't make a decision - and instead do a wait-n-see - is filled with dread, regret and frustration (present, past and future, respectively). Clearly, this is about more than just whether to blog or not! But I find that when the floodgates of indecision open, it has a serious trickle-down effect for me...and those other 9 times I need to make a simple decision suddenly become overstated, exaggerated and filled with mental controversy. That's where I'm at right about now.
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Thanks for your comments and emails about Scout - I really appreciate your concern and kind words. We took her to a holistic vet yesterday, who confirmed that our options are limited at best. We have some things to try, and we will make haste on those (an easy decision there). Matt's been learning reiki so he can practice that with her, too. If ever two souls could pass healing energy to one another, it's the two of them. I'm convinced Matt will be mentally bending spoons in my lifetime...
