Yesterday morning, I was up early-early to get a jump on my deadlines, projects and inbox. I have been having serious anxiety dreams where I can't fish the broken shells out of a huge bowl of cracked eggs or where my name is blacklisted in public at Home Depot b/c of a declined debit card. You know what I'm talking about. Innocent on the surface, but so deep-seated in stress! One of the ways I mitigate that feeling is to get a ton of work done in a short amount of time - cue music!
As I jumped in thought or action from fabric design to order fulfillment to conversations about sewing projects and more during my work frenzy, I had one of those removed moments where I was peeking in on my work life. In that split-second, I smiled broadly and introspected, "Look at all the amazing creativity and joy (mine & others) I am surrounded by! How stinkin' lucky am I that I get to do what I do everyday!" This thought was promptly tempered with the overarching knowledge of struggle, frustration, heartache, sleeplessness, indecision, a.n.x.i.e.t.y. with a capital A, fierce determination, pushing the envelope, heavy lifting and mindbreaking exertion.
I nodded at the meshing of my happy, lucky feeling and the reminder of how I ended up here: the hard, hard, hard work. It definitely didn't happen without someone steering and yelling out the window, "Look out - I'm going really fast and I don't have a license for this thing!" I grabbed a post-it and jotted down, "a lot of hard work behind scenes of a lucky life!"
I have no idea why I wrote it down - only that it seemed worth remembering despite its utter randomness.
Fifteen minutes later, I went downstairs to enjoy one of the last breakfasts with M and the manchild before we all return to Fall routines. I always read the horoscopes aloud for each of us, so we can oooooh and aaaaah and laugh. Except yesterday, I didn't laugh. I almost fell out my chair. It was so similar to what I JUST written down on that post-it:
"The more determined, dedicated and consistent you become, the luckier you'll get. This is one of those days when Lady Luck will be delighted to help out in more ways than one."
How about that co-inky-dink? Doesn't mean diddly in the grand scheme, but I put a little temporary emotional stock into it yesterday. Still riding it some today...
Where your hard work hits its stride is where you'll find your lucky life!
I'll be back with more regular posting after Labor Day - and a reveal of Daisy Janie's next organic fabric collection!!!